Feeling A Bit Overwhelmed

Alright, so right now in my life I have LOTS of things to do still, which considering that I'm a patient person for the most part is really testing that patience. I think I get a little 'antsy' when I want to be over & done with certain things in my life & just want the next part to be here now. I can think of a lot examples in my life that I have felt like this. I just gotta stick it out for a bit longer :\

In no particular order:

#1 Packing up the WHOLE apartment & also getting rid of stuff
I started doing this last week & my sister asked me why I was doing it so early, well i don't want my/our last week in our apartment to be mayhem. I've been s-l-o-w-l-y been going through the stuff in the living room. Most of the things in the living room are Christina's things. Plus, we need to get more boxes to put her stuff in, I thought I got enough today but NOPE! I was wrong & I'll probably need 10 more or so. I just want to clean & get out of here!

This in my attempt at trying to be organized amid the mayhem of all the stuff that we have.

I hope the "TRASH" & "DONATE" boxes get filled & the "KEEP" not so much. I'm going to go through my room tomorrow again & really be strict on myself what I truly want to keep because its a want or a need. Also I'll ask myself "HAVE I USED IT IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS? WILL I USE IT IN THE NEXT 6 MONTHS? WILL IT HELP OR HINDER MY LIFE BY KEEPING THE ITEM?" yes, I have put a lot of thought at this moving process because I don't want to have a lot of stuff that I won't be using. Plus, I have seen the show "HOARDING: BURIED ALIVE," I don't want stuff to rule my life.

Cute moment of the day, moments after I set up the boxes Guido jumps right into the "KEEP" box. I sent the photo my mom & she says "OH HOW CUTE! He knows he doesn't want to be thrown away or donated" haha. Cats are smart, they just know how to play their owners like fools. haha. 








#2 Planning my sister Christina's wedding
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!! (enuf said!)

#3 Planning my move home (28 more days & 9 more work days!)
Ready for a change, even if its going back home. But at least I can figure out if being home is where I need to be or if its going somewhere else. I am going to drive myself home, 12 hours baby! My dad was originally going to drive home with me but I decided that I'm old enough to drive by myself. Plus its not like I've haven't driven home before. Christina & I have done it 4 times already! My plan is to leave in the morning, most likely April 25th around 10-11am & drive 6 hours to Las Vegas where I will be staying with my sisters sister-in-law for the night. Then the next morning again around 10-11am drive home. I knew immediately that I didn't want to drive at night because I don't trust night drivers & I don't have the best eyesight at night. Also I didn't want to try & drive 12 hrs straight, even though I have driven 11+ hours last Christmas when my sister was too tired to drive.

#4 Making sure all my things will fit in my car (<-totally freaking about this!)
Hence why I want to drive myself home because I'm not sure if all my stuff will fit in my car. Well I do know that my things will fit, but I'm not sure if the other things that my sister wants me take home will fit. Plus having an extra person in my car will add extra weight & I will lose space. Sorry dad. I know that I shouldn't freak out too much because Christina & Jason will be driving down for their wedding & can take some things home with them that won't fit in my car but I want to be able to take all my things which is basically my clothes, books, movies, & my massage things.


#5 Finding a job when I get home & also applying for my CA massage license
I know that I will probably 'get a break' from not having a job for a while which will be good for me but will also drive me crazy because I'm use to being busy. My plan is to get a temp job at a temp agency while I wait for my CA massage license to arrive. I'm not sure if I want to go back to Massage Envy, it all depends on the hours & pay that I receive. I do want to work somewhere its preferably Mon-Fri because for the past 5 months I've worked Fridays - Mondays which means I HAVE NO WEEKENDS!!  So when people get excited because its Friday.....not so true for me because its going back to work for me. Which don't get me wrong, I do love what I do. But when you have sucky schedule & hours its not as exciting.

#6 Moving my sister into her new apartment
This one will happen soon which is great because then we can start moving things from this apartment to her new one. Which means this apartment gets cleared out & we can start cleaning out the apartment!! I'm ready for some deep cleaning!! I have my gloves & knee pads ready to scrub this place clean even though we are moving out. Christina & Jason are hoping to get accepted townhouse that they applied for last week in the Cottonwood area. 

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Also hoping that when I move home things will work out for me: personally, spiritually, romantically. But I know that only I can make great things happen in my life if I chose to make it happen.

Sewing Project: Makeup Brush Carrier

I received this idea from a video I saw on youtube from the threadbanger channel.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RX2bp63lxio I knew as soon as I saw this video that I could totally make a makeup brush carrier, i didn't have the right measurement but I had extra material from an old project that I did, which were old skirts that were too big for me but the material were sturdy or pretty.

Its funny because I get the most creative at night but in the morning I realize what I have done wrong & spend the whole day trying to fix my mistake. haha. Today was no different, luckily I didn't sew too much last night & I have a handy-dandy good seam ripper. I love it because I recently bought a set of makeup brushes & my little pouch couldn't close anymore. I think this is great because the brushes are visible & organized...which i love!

Here is my final project.

 this is the 'front side' the black & white flower material are from an old skirt I had that didn't fit anymore but I didn't want to donate it because I loved the pattern & knew I could do something else with it. The black material is also from an old skirt that was too big for me.

 All my brushes in their little pockets, it was a bit tricky to have two rows, but I just followed the top rows pockets when I sewed the bottom pockets.

The big brushes on the top row I used 1 inch & a half, the big kabuki was 2 inches. All the others were about 1 inch, make sure to measure your brushes just in case & round up that way its a bit bigger for your brush to fit.

 This is my brush carrier rolled up, the lace is actually from my grandma Hilaria's collection of things that I have.

At the end I also added little hooks that way I can hook it to my makeup bag & make it a bit easier when I'm applying my makeup. Our bathroom doesn't have huge counter space, so this really helps me.

Yay for recycling & re-purposing!

Gregory's New Tattoo's & Other Stuff

Since I have no children & most of my family & friends are in CA, my current interests are my sisters cat Guido, my car Gregory, crocheting, massage, boys & other random stuff. Hence why most of my posts are about my car or massage, I have yet to post any photos of my crochet creations but they will come soon. I'm no pro, but I can make scarves, beanies & small blankets. I have yet to make an afghan, those seem way too intense for me.

Anyways, I finally had some left over money (hooray for taxes & savings) that I finally bought some stuff that I had been looking at on amazon.com, an evil evil little website. haha. I didn't go too crazy, just bought my sister her birthday gift, a massage tool for getting out really bad knots. I used that last night. OY! i'm still sore from my massage & other random stuff that I really liked. If you know me I really loved my mission, not at first. It took me about a year to finally love it; the city, the work & my companions. Anyways, i found these really cool phoenix decals & now they're spiffed up on my car. One on each side of the little window on the back doors. so pretty!

I'm also what I consider to be a safe driver, I follow the speed limit, break, use my turn signals, etc. It took me a LONG time to learn how to drive because I didn't have the confidence to drive. I didn't receive my license until I was 22, I only got it because I knew that I needed to get it before I left on my mission & depending if I was sent somewhere stateside where missionaries had cars. I received my mission call & I was called to Bolivia-NO CARS! whew! But then Heavenly Father thought that it would be a fun growing experience for me if my mission was closed down & was reassigned. I was reassigned to Phoenix & my drivers licensed had to FedEx'd overnight because I was now the primary driver. My mission trainer was from Australia & didn't have an American drivers license. I learned primarily from a member of my first ward I served in. She drove taxi's for a living, so she knew how to drive & did a great job teaching me....again. Music is what mainly calms my nerves when I drive (which is what she taught me). But back to the decal, here in Utah, people have a tendency to get super SUPER DUPER close to cars & it really annoys me. I've only really noticed it here that it happens a lot more, when I drove in Phoenix, it wasn't that bad & I wasn't driving enough in CA to notice it. So I'm hoping with my little decal that people get the hint to BACK OFF my butt or there will be a break check & an insurance claim on their butts.

Lastly, since my car was 'hand-me-down' car, I don't know what happened to the door handle when my dad fixed the car for me but it was completely torn off the door. I didn't have a door handle for a long time, I used the plastic little space in the door to shut my door. I recently bought some super strength super glue (E-700 available @ Michael's & Big Lots). I originally glued it about 2 weeks ago but since i didn't have a weight against the door & the door handle, it didn't really adhere. Well half of it did, so today I decided to try it again, since it was such a pretty day outside (no snow for a change), so super glue & bungee cords are doing the job, hopefully better than the first time I tried it. The glue does smell like super industrial strength glue, which sorta smells like a boy. haha. So i don't mind it too much, especially with the mix of my ocean breeze air freshener.

 

I also bought these 2 things which I'm waiting to get in the mail next week. I'm EXCITED! its like christmas for me when I get my stuff in the mail :D

This is a car audio cable that I can plug into the back of my car cd player & i can play my ipod :D :D I looked up car stereo brand & this should fit, if not I will be really sad, but I only paid $1.37. Its better than $50+ for a car CD player with aux input. I'm keeping my car for as long as it survives in my care.

This is a double cigarette lighter adapter, which I totally need in my car for my GPS & to charge my phone or ipod. Super cheap on amazon.com, I think I got it for under $2.

So now my next goal is not getting on amazon.com anymore, for a while at least. I have to save my money for my move home & for all the other expenses & bills that I have.

I ♥ My Gregory. OH! I even made a video about him on subaru.com haha!! http://www.firstcarstory.com/story/3384 I sound like a dork, but I had fun.

My First SER

While I was attending UCMT one of the first things they taught was SER's aka Somato Emotional Release OR in simple terms its an emotional trigger from receiving a massage on your muscles or knots that causes a person to have a reaction of laughing or crying. I had that today. I finally went and received a massage from a therapist that I work with, I massaged him first for 90 min & then it was my turn. Everything was going great, the massage felt good, he had great pressure & technique. I felt relaxed but also had some Trigger Points aka knots all over my body, on my neck, back, arms. Yeah, I'm a bit messed up. Anyways, the therapist was working on my back & doing some awesome massage strokes up my back & all of a sudden he hit a knot, which obviously hurt in a painful & good way but it was also an emotional trigger. I just started crying. A flood of emotion just filled my heart & head which I was trying so hard for the past few weeks to ignore & not let it affect me. The therapist was really nice & let me have a moment to compose myself.

I've always tried to help my family during struggling times, especially when there are disputes within my family. I've been known as the peacemaker of my siblings, so when a 'fall out' occurred recently regarding money & family. I tried to give my opinion on the matter, oh boy! was it thrown back in my face, so I've kept my mouth shut & minded my own business.

I don't like DRAMA, QUARRELS, ARGUMENTS, BICKERING, SQUABBLES, ETC. I've heard it almost all my life growing up between my parents & other family members. My siblings & i have always been pretty close. It helps that we are close in age & have had to go through 'growing up' faster than other people because of my parents divorce. I've learned the hard way that shutting down & giving the silent treatment to try & resolve a problem is a HUGE "no-no." Because in the end, NOTHING gets resolved. Just more contention, grudges, and possibly even getting that previous problem getting thrown back in the face & causing even a bigger blowout.

That has happened to me, one particular incident was while I was serving my mission. I was constantly around my mission companion, like 24/7 & we're never out of site from each other (except to use the bathroom). Lets just say that certain things were annoying the both of us that we were doing to each other but neither of us talked about it. We both assumed that the other would talk about it. But you know what assuming does right? Makes an @$$ out of you & me. so DON'T ASSUME! Anyways the contention just grew & grew until we just exploded at each other. I couldn't give her the silent treatment or run away from the problem, that wasn't going to resolve anything. I had to face the problem with my mission companion & talk about it. Since then i just try to communicate how I feel as soon as a problem happens & i try not to assume but try to get the facts straight.

Anyways, this family dispute was really affecting my body in a way that I never understood until now. I could try to hide my feelings, thoughts, opinions & try hold them in, but my body will let me know that its still there. Oh its crazy how the human body can do that! The therapist told me that the only way that the knot will go away is if i just talk about it, which I did with my mom & sister last night & cried for 10 min. I feel completely sore & bruised but I feel a lot better. SER's are not very common with people when they receive massages. I haven't had a client have one yet & like I said this was my first one & I've received LOTS of massaged the last 2 years.